One of the Many Meanings of Perpetual Girlhood: God Edition

I live in a state of perpetual girlhood. It is a choice I have made.

When I say that, I mean many things. I mean that I am feminine, that I am young at heart, that I am pursuing my childhood interests. But I also look at perpetual girlhood from the perspective of my spiritual beliefs.

I believe in God. I believe in Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I try my best to live my life in the way He wants me to live it. He is my Father. He knows what is best for me. He created, so he will guide. I just have to trust Him.

Because of my beliefs–and this can apply to people of many religions–I do not see myself as being in complete control of my life. I am but one tiny human being. I am just a girl.

I am living–and will continue to live–in girlhood unending; protected, cared for, and loved by someone bigger than me.

I have a Father who will guide me. No matter how old I get, I will never be wise enough to do it all on my own.

I have a faith that many mistake for naivety. I believe in something I cannot see. Heaven is like a fairytale castle that sits just beyond the clouded horizon.

I have open-mouthed wonder for Creation, child-like awe for the mountains, skies, and other human beings. The simplest of things leave me with feelings I have not yet learned to articulate.

I try my hardest to live in the sinless innocence of a young child. I am not worldly and easily influenced by others. I am a child who likes to find the dirt with the most worms and carry toads to shelter under flowering bushes. I do what feels like happiness to me, not what others say it is.

I am a girl and forever will be.